ezra 8:21 - then i proclaimed a fast there at the river of Ahava, that we might humble ourselves before our God, to seek from Him the right way for us and our little ones and all our possessions.is it possible to feel scared and at peace at the same time?
psalm 37:23 - the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way.
psalm 48:14 - for this is God, our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death.
proverbs 3:6 - in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths
proverbs 16:9 - a man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
what she said.
if you look at the comments on my last post, delana posted these verses.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
at tha crossroads.
this post title makes me think of that old song by bone thugs-n-harmony called, "tha crossroads."
yeah. that's how you spell it. "tha." i looked it up.
well, i'm there.
i can't get too detailed because of the public nature of this blog, but i feel like one phase of my life is coming to an end, but i haven't an inkling as to the next step.
seriously, i want this phase to end. i'm so ready. things are just not well. my spirit is stirring for a change.
but if i end it, i have no idea where to go next.
i can think of several options, but none of them seem to be just blaringly perfect.
i suppose it's because my limited vision is incapable of seeing the perfect option because it's yet to be revealed. and most likely i'm not going to see it until i take a leap of faith, following what i believe to be the right thing in my heart.
God likes to do that, huh? ask us to go places without a specified reason. it's because He ends up providing a great testimony that would be far less impactful if i knew the outcome beforehand.
but herein lies my problem: how do i know if i'm supposed to take the leap, and He's ready to catch me? what if i'm just being an impatient brat who needs to just suck it up and stay put?
that, my friends, is the million dollar question.
so here i remain.
and in the words of krayzie bone, layzie bone, wish bone, bizzy bone and flesh-n-bone:
yeah. that's how you spell it. "tha." i looked it up.
well, i'm there.
i can't get too detailed because of the public nature of this blog, but i feel like one phase of my life is coming to an end, but i haven't an inkling as to the next step.
seriously, i want this phase to end. i'm so ready. things are just not well. my spirit is stirring for a change.
but if i end it, i have no idea where to go next.
i can think of several options, but none of them seem to be just blaringly perfect.
i suppose it's because my limited vision is incapable of seeing the perfect option because it's yet to be revealed. and most likely i'm not going to see it until i take a leap of faith, following what i believe to be the right thing in my heart.
God likes to do that, huh? ask us to go places without a specified reason. it's because He ends up providing a great testimony that would be far less impactful if i knew the outcome beforehand.
but herein lies my problem: how do i know if i'm supposed to take the leap, and He's ready to catch me? what if i'm just being an impatient brat who needs to just suck it up and stay put?
that, my friends, is the million dollar question.
so here i remain.
and in the words of krayzie bone, layzie bone, wish bone, bizzy bone and flesh-n-bone:
gotta hold on gotta stay strong/when the day comes/better believe bone got a shoulder you can lean on/hey and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray/everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday/and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray/everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
the pool!
on sunday night, we went to kayci's birthday party at the pool. daddy decided ellie needed to dip her toes in the hot tub. she loved it. i think she looks so pretty.
hot dog.
landon was a huge help with the shower as he hauled tables and chairs across town from the church for me. when he came back to get them after the party, he brought doc to the park. doc was soo happy and soo hot.
more baby shower pics -- these not from sarah.
food table.
drink and brownie table.
gift table.
pretty cake.
pretty preggo.
my presents for kelly. her room is pink and brown, and i found those photo boxes on a great sale at michael's. then the decoration is some sweet trim from hobby lobby and metal scrapbooking stickers. LOVE IT. inside are two little outfits and diapers. it was a fun present.
the front of the card i made.
the inside of the card i made.
kelly and me.
father's day.
this is the gingerbread i made for my daddy -- the flags has a slight mishap on the way to his house. (ahem! travis.)
landon's presents - waiting for his arrival from nicaragua.
landon reading ellie's card.
landon opening his barnes and noble gift card from ellie.
landon reading what i wrote in the book i gave him.
landon proudly displaying his baby girl's father's day footprints.
daddy and baby on better-late-than-never-father's day.
long walks shake your tummy.
a couple days before landon got home from nicaragua, ellie and i went on a 4.4 mile walk with jennifer and evie, another mom and baby. jen is on our 3-day team. right went we got home ellie puked everywhere, and then grinned like crazy. when i took her out of her carseat she did this whole-body stretch for like five minutes. don't you love her hat? she slept great that night.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
ellie can't wait for maylea.
this photo also courtesy of sarah. she did the frame too. she is amazing.
baby shower greatness.
this weekend was insane with landon coming home from nicaragua and various showers and parties. here is a baby shower i threw on saturday morning for my beautiful friend kelly. this pictures are thanks so the super talented sarah dahl. i'm gonna get her to photograph everything for me. she makes it look good!
Friday, June 22, 2007
dear landon 10.
dear landon,
you are about to take off from houston, and i can barely contain my excitement.
i talked to penny, and she said she couldn't sleep last night because she's so glad ya'll are almost home.
i agree wholeheartedly.
i have your father's day presents out and ready to open. i have the house (besides the bedroom...) clean. ellie is dressed super cute thanks to aunt lolli. i got my eyebrows waxed (ha).
i just cannot wait to take you in my arms.
i miss you so bad.
but you're almost here!
i can't even write anything cohesive because my heart is already beating hard.
i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE you.
your wife,
sarah
you are about to take off from houston, and i can barely contain my excitement.
i talked to penny, and she said she couldn't sleep last night because she's so glad ya'll are almost home.
i agree wholeheartedly.
i have your father's day presents out and ready to open. i have the house (besides the bedroom...) clean. ellie is dressed super cute thanks to aunt lolli. i got my eyebrows waxed (ha).
i just cannot wait to take you in my arms.
i miss you so bad.
but you're almost here!
i can't even write anything cohesive because my heart is already beating hard.
i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE you.
your wife,
sarah
Thursday, June 21, 2007
an attitude adjustment.
if you know me well, it's no secret that if i had my druthers, i'd be staying home with ellie.
the result is often a bad attitude toward the need for me to work.
it manifests itself in all sorts of ways including, but not limited to, less-than-inspired effort, jealousy toward people who get to stay home or will when they have children and a sinking feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach when i contemplate anything related to the issue.
the situation is further complicated by the fact that i love my job. i love to write. and on top of that, a part of me feels i will have failed if i choose to stay home with ellie. like i will have wasted a gift.
well, last night at church God punked me.
pastor jesse was preaching about how "sin's power cannot be whipped by trying."
basically, we need the Holy Spirit in order to get anywhere in life because our efforts alone are not enough.
one thing he said stuck with me: "work today like you're working for the Master in heaven."
God spoke to my heart, saying, "I put you here for a reason. I have a mission for you. in order to accomplish that mission, you will have to be faithful. remember, you're working for Me. take it one step at a time. I would never lead you astray. someday, you will see how this will all work out."
the thought sent me to work this morning inspired anew.
working for people, for money, for advancement or for status allows me to fall short. in fact, it causes me to fall short.
working for Jesus encourages me with the knowledge that, by the Spirit, i will accomplish the mission laid before me in my job - no matter what it is - while at the same time allows me to greet each day with a fresh perspective, wondering, "where will He take me today?"
what a blessing to know that He'll always take me somewhere beyond my wildest dreams.
the result is often a bad attitude toward the need for me to work.
it manifests itself in all sorts of ways including, but not limited to, less-than-inspired effort, jealousy toward people who get to stay home or will when they have children and a sinking feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach when i contemplate anything related to the issue.
the situation is further complicated by the fact that i love my job. i love to write. and on top of that, a part of me feels i will have failed if i choose to stay home with ellie. like i will have wasted a gift.
well, last night at church God punked me.
pastor jesse was preaching about how "sin's power cannot be whipped by trying."
basically, we need the Holy Spirit in order to get anywhere in life because our efforts alone are not enough.
one thing he said stuck with me: "work today like you're working for the Master in heaven."
God spoke to my heart, saying, "I put you here for a reason. I have a mission for you. in order to accomplish that mission, you will have to be faithful. remember, you're working for Me. take it one step at a time. I would never lead you astray. someday, you will see how this will all work out."
the thought sent me to work this morning inspired anew.
working for people, for money, for advancement or for status allows me to fall short. in fact, it causes me to fall short.
working for Jesus encourages me with the knowledge that, by the Spirit, i will accomplish the mission laid before me in my job - no matter what it is - while at the same time allows me to greet each day with a fresh perspective, wondering, "where will He take me today?"
what a blessing to know that He'll always take me somewhere beyond my wildest dreams.
dear landon 9.
dear landon,
i'm so excited you're going to be home tomorrow!
this morning i was praising God in the car on the way to work, and i was thanking Him for you.
i totally broke down sobbing because i miss you so much.
i really haven't cried much about you being gone. i didn't even cry when we said bye at the church. i've moped quite a bit. but not as much crying.
it all came out this morning. i'm sure the other drivers probably thought i was nuts.
it's just sometimes i'm overwhelmed with the amount of love i feel for you. it has to escape somehow, or i would literally explode.
today it came in tears.
and my heart is so happy that tonight is the last night i'll have to sleep without you.
i can't wait.
you are my hero.
your wife,
sarah
i'm so excited you're going to be home tomorrow!
this morning i was praising God in the car on the way to work, and i was thanking Him for you.
i totally broke down sobbing because i miss you so much.
i really haven't cried much about you being gone. i didn't even cry when we said bye at the church. i've moped quite a bit. but not as much crying.
it all came out this morning. i'm sure the other drivers probably thought i was nuts.
it's just sometimes i'm overwhelmed with the amount of love i feel for you. it has to escape somehow, or i would literally explode.
today it came in tears.
and my heart is so happy that tonight is the last night i'll have to sleep without you.
i can't wait.
you are my hero.
your wife,
sarah
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
training: "the difference between enduring the walk and enjoying the walk."
so it's officially underway.
penny and i walked at the nature preserve this morning for about 40 minutes. there are lots of hills so it was a challenge for us mamas who haven't made it out to workout since the babies were born.
it was an adventure because ellie got hungry with about a fourth of the trail left and screamed the entire last part. cade was annoyed with the sun in his eyes and continued to kick his blanket off -- penny was trying to avoid a sneaky sunburn.
it was a little less than smooth, but we know what to do for next time.
i like waking up to workout because i feel motivated for the rest of the day.
only bad thing was, i missed a phone call from landon.
very sad about that. hopefully he'll call back soon.
it's time for ellie's nap and my shower.
it's looking to be a good day!
**in addition**
on top of training for the 3-day, i'm looking to lose 30 pounds. if i can do that, i will have lost the last 8 or 10 pounds of baby weight plus the 20 pounds i wanted to lose before i ever got pregnant. if i stay on that pace, i will lose 12 or so pounds by scott and kelly's wedding (decent) and will make it to my goal by Jan. 1, 2008. it'd be super nice if there were a few weeks in there where i lost more than a pound a week, but i know i have to be reasonable.
i know i can do it. i've figured the calorie count for a 130-pound, moderately active woman (i just gave away my current weight, didn't i?), and i'm subtracting 250 consumption calories and 250 more through exercise each day. a little google research told me that 250 calories equals about a 2.5 mile walk. today i did 2 miles, but that's pretty close.
wish me luck. or pray. or both.
penny and i walked at the nature preserve this morning for about 40 minutes. there are lots of hills so it was a challenge for us mamas who haven't made it out to workout since the babies were born.
it was an adventure because ellie got hungry with about a fourth of the trail left and screamed the entire last part. cade was annoyed with the sun in his eyes and continued to kick his blanket off -- penny was trying to avoid a sneaky sunburn.
it was a little less than smooth, but we know what to do for next time.
i like waking up to workout because i feel motivated for the rest of the day.
only bad thing was, i missed a phone call from landon.
very sad about that. hopefully he'll call back soon.
it's time for ellie's nap and my shower.
it's looking to be a good day!
**in addition**
on top of training for the 3-day, i'm looking to lose 30 pounds. if i can do that, i will have lost the last 8 or 10 pounds of baby weight plus the 20 pounds i wanted to lose before i ever got pregnant. if i stay on that pace, i will lose 12 or so pounds by scott and kelly's wedding (decent) and will make it to my goal by Jan. 1, 2008. it'd be super nice if there were a few weeks in there where i lost more than a pound a week, but i know i have to be reasonable.
i know i can do it. i've figured the calorie count for a 130-pound, moderately active woman (i just gave away my current weight, didn't i?), and i'm subtracting 250 consumption calories and 250 more through exercise each day. a little google research told me that 250 calories equals about a 2.5 mile walk. today i did 2 miles, but that's pretty close.
wish me luck. or pray. or both.
dear landon 8.
dear landon,
hi, baby. it's 1:19 in the morning, and i'm really tired.
tired but now i'm really all alone.
kylah left today at 6. it was so great having her here. i wish she hadn't had to leave.
i gave ellie rice cereal for the first time tonight. she sucked it down, but i think it might've messed with her tummy a little because she screamed terror at the top of her lungs for probably close to an hour.
finally, i got her to nurse a little, and she passed out. i'm praying she stays asleep. if the cereal doesn't make her sleep longer, the screaming fest ought to have worn her out for at least a few hours.
we're walking with penny and cade at the nature preserve at 8. my training officially starts this week because i have two walks planned. i have another one thursday evening with jennifer. i'm excited to get it kicked off.
also cool news regarding the 3-day: my coach called (she left a message) to tell me that they want to write a story about me and my family (laura and mom, i'm assuming) for the news and updates publication they put out once a month leading up to the walk. it goes out to just the dallas/fort work walkers, but that's still several thousand people. pretty cool, huh? i'd talked to my coach, leslie, about the story with mom when i was asking her a question, plus, i think she's impressed with my fundraising efforts. so.. i'm excited. her message said the story is due friday so i expect to talk to her tomorrow.
i'm definitely going to church tomorrow night 'cause i'm sure i'll be able to use the break after having ellie all day with no help. also, i just really need refreshing.
i don't know why, but i have this sort of underlying sadness inside right now. it's a weird uneasy feeling that i just can't shake. maybe it's just because you're gone. regardless, i could definitely use some encouragement.
i miss you so much, love. i wish i could've heard your voice tonight. i hope your half-day was restful. i love you very, very much.
keeping your half of the bed warm,
your wife
hi, baby. it's 1:19 in the morning, and i'm really tired.
tired but now i'm really all alone.
kylah left today at 6. it was so great having her here. i wish she hadn't had to leave.
i gave ellie rice cereal for the first time tonight. she sucked it down, but i think it might've messed with her tummy a little because she screamed terror at the top of her lungs for probably close to an hour.
finally, i got her to nurse a little, and she passed out. i'm praying she stays asleep. if the cereal doesn't make her sleep longer, the screaming fest ought to have worn her out for at least a few hours.
we're walking with penny and cade at the nature preserve at 8. my training officially starts this week because i have two walks planned. i have another one thursday evening with jennifer. i'm excited to get it kicked off.
also cool news regarding the 3-day: my coach called (she left a message) to tell me that they want to write a story about me and my family (laura and mom, i'm assuming) for the news and updates publication they put out once a month leading up to the walk. it goes out to just the dallas/fort work walkers, but that's still several thousand people. pretty cool, huh? i'd talked to my coach, leslie, about the story with mom when i was asking her a question, plus, i think she's impressed with my fundraising efforts. so.. i'm excited. her message said the story is due friday so i expect to talk to her tomorrow.
i'm definitely going to church tomorrow night 'cause i'm sure i'll be able to use the break after having ellie all day with no help. also, i just really need refreshing.
i don't know why, but i have this sort of underlying sadness inside right now. it's a weird uneasy feeling that i just can't shake. maybe it's just because you're gone. regardless, i could definitely use some encouragement.
i miss you so much, love. i wish i could've heard your voice tonight. i hope your half-day was restful. i love you very, very much.
keeping your half of the bed warm,
your wife
Monday, June 18, 2007
dear landon 7.
dear landon,
it's been cloudy most of the time you've been gone. i'm pretty much expecting the clouds to break to a blindingly-sunshine sky when you return to me.
i'm so tired.
as you know, ellie slept through the night for the week before you left for nicaragua.
she hasn't slept through the night since you left.
i had that flu-feeling thing, i'm having cramps (yeah, go ahead and celebrate, it came), i haven't slept at all, work has been hard and mom has surgery tomorrow. the mixture is compounding to an exhaustion that would seem only to be quenched with a week straight of sleep.
i don't really understand it because kylah has been wonderful. she's helped me clean. taken ellie an awful lot -- even some early mornings. she's done all our laundry, changed the sheets and taken doc outside more often than anyone i've ever known.
i guess there's just something about you that brings an energy and spirit to my life. without you, i just feel tired. things seem weird. i feel like i'd rather just stay in bed. you're my reason to rise in the morning.
you being gone also makes me extra dramatic and melancholy -- as is quite evident.
oh! and to top it all off, i had to go to the dentist again today. my jaws and teeth hurt so bad. i hate the dentist.
i love you, my love. i'm checking my email every 10 minutes. write me, won't you?
wondering how many breaths it will take to get through four more days,
your wife
it's been cloudy most of the time you've been gone. i'm pretty much expecting the clouds to break to a blindingly-sunshine sky when you return to me.
i'm so tired.
as you know, ellie slept through the night for the week before you left for nicaragua.
she hasn't slept through the night since you left.
i had that flu-feeling thing, i'm having cramps (yeah, go ahead and celebrate, it came), i haven't slept at all, work has been hard and mom has surgery tomorrow. the mixture is compounding to an exhaustion that would seem only to be quenched with a week straight of sleep.
i don't really understand it because kylah has been wonderful. she's helped me clean. taken ellie an awful lot -- even some early mornings. she's done all our laundry, changed the sheets and taken doc outside more often than anyone i've ever known.
i guess there's just something about you that brings an energy and spirit to my life. without you, i just feel tired. things seem weird. i feel like i'd rather just stay in bed. you're my reason to rise in the morning.
you being gone also makes me extra dramatic and melancholy -- as is quite evident.
oh! and to top it all off, i had to go to the dentist again today. my jaws and teeth hurt so bad. i hate the dentist.
i love you, my love. i'm checking my email every 10 minutes. write me, won't you?
wondering how many breaths it will take to get through four more days,
your wife
Sunday, June 17, 2007
his first father's day - in nicaragua.
i cried when i found out landon was going to be in nicaragua for his first father's day. he's such a good daddy, and i was looking forward to spoiling him today. i plan to give him his presents and take him out when he gets back, but it's not the same.
i'm amazed at how easily landon has adapted to being a dad. he's so gentle and caring with ellie. he never tires of holding her or feeding her. he is always willing to love on her and give me a break whenever i need it. i can't wait for her to grow up watching him model Jesus. she's going to respect and love him so much. she already does.
when i pray for her husband, i pray that God brings her a man like her daddy.
it's a tall order, but I know He can do it.
happy first father's day, my love. i miss you more than words can say.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
dear landon 6. santorini island edition.
dear landon,
we're watching the food network, and the host is in santorini island, greece.
do you remember telling me that you'd take me to greece before we get pregnant again?
if we planned to have a baby the winter that ellie is three, we'd get pregnant when she's two years and three months old. that'd be may 2009.
so, from now, june 16, 2007 to may 2009 you have 23 months to take me.
i just checked weather.com and the average temperature in greece in april is 66 degrees. in may it's 75 degrees.
so...sometime between april and may 2009, i think would be fine.
we could make a baby in greece...
oooh! i'm so excited.
i love you.
your wife.
we're watching the food network, and the host is in santorini island, greece.
do you remember telling me that you'd take me to greece before we get pregnant again?
if we planned to have a baby the winter that ellie is three, we'd get pregnant when she's two years and three months old. that'd be may 2009.
so, from now, june 16, 2007 to may 2009 you have 23 months to take me.
i just checked weather.com and the average temperature in greece in april is 66 degrees. in may it's 75 degrees.
so...sometime between april and may 2009, i think would be fine.
we could make a baby in greece...
oooh! i'm so excited.
i love you.
your wife.
dear landon 5.
dear landon,
today was a good day. i wish you'd been here to share it.
kylah, ellie and i didn't leave the house until it was time for church. we cleaned up a little bit, and took naps. we didn't get out of our pjs all day.
i got a 3-hour nap. oh, it was heavenly.
it was also great 'cause you called. kylah said, "aww.." when i answered the phone 'cause she could tell it was you by my huge smile.
after church we went to eat at jason's deli with penny, cade, dave, amy, katelyn and noah. it was nice.
i had the girls in my small group pray for you guys, and i was praying during service.
i was encouraged because while i was praying i thought about how full of God's grace and love you're going to be when you get back. i can't wait to hear stories and see how God's changed you.
i'm so proud of you.
baby! you're in nicaragua helping people who've never seen medicine!
how cool is that?
i love you so much.
i can't wait to see you.
love,
your wife
today was a good day. i wish you'd been here to share it.
kylah, ellie and i didn't leave the house until it was time for church. we cleaned up a little bit, and took naps. we didn't get out of our pjs all day.
i got a 3-hour nap. oh, it was heavenly.
it was also great 'cause you called. kylah said, "aww.." when i answered the phone 'cause she could tell it was you by my huge smile.
after church we went to eat at jason's deli with penny, cade, dave, amy, katelyn and noah. it was nice.
i had the girls in my small group pray for you guys, and i was praying during service.
i was encouraged because while i was praying i thought about how full of God's grace and love you're going to be when you get back. i can't wait to hear stories and see how God's changed you.
i'm so proud of you.
baby! you're in nicaragua helping people who've never seen medicine!
how cool is that?
i love you so much.
i can't wait to see you.
love,
your wife
a letter to ellie's future husband.
my dearest future son,
i just finished feeding your wife. i rocked her for awhile and just stared at her beautiful blue eyes and perfect smile.
you came to mind, and i prayed for you.
i don't know whether you're alive yet. you may be five years old already.
i don't know where you are. you could live down the street, or you could be on a different continent.
i don't know the color of your skin. you may not even speak english yet.
but i'm praying that the God of the universe will guide you. that His love and peace will saturate your life before you meet my daughter and for the many years i hope you spend loving each other.
i pray that the Perfect Provider is blessing you and your family with abundance; that you have everything you need.
i pray that when you meet and marry ellie you will look to the Lord for guidence and that you abide in His wisdom.
i also pray that the words that come from my daughter's beautiful lips speak words that encourage and uplift you. i pray that her hands work hard for the two of you and your family. i pray that her voice is a light in your life; that it is a relief at the end of a hard day.
be safe, little one, wherever you are.
i promise to raise her to love Jesus so she can love you.
i love you already,
your future mama-in-law
i just finished feeding your wife. i rocked her for awhile and just stared at her beautiful blue eyes and perfect smile.
you came to mind, and i prayed for you.
i don't know whether you're alive yet. you may be five years old already.
i don't know where you are. you could live down the street, or you could be on a different continent.
i don't know the color of your skin. you may not even speak english yet.
but i'm praying that the God of the universe will guide you. that His love and peace will saturate your life before you meet my daughter and for the many years i hope you spend loving each other.
i pray that the Perfect Provider is blessing you and your family with abundance; that you have everything you need.
i pray that when you meet and marry ellie you will look to the Lord for guidence and that you abide in His wisdom.
i also pray that the words that come from my daughter's beautiful lips speak words that encourage and uplift you. i pray that her hands work hard for the two of you and your family. i pray that her voice is a light in your life; that it is a relief at the end of a hard day.
be safe, little one, wherever you are.
i promise to raise her to love Jesus so she can love you.
i love you already,
your future mama-in-law
Friday, June 15, 2007
dear landon 4.
dear landon,
hi, baby.
i called you last night, and i texted you this afternoon. i know you won't get it until a long time, but the voicemail was a way to hear your voice.
every time i get a text, i rush to the phone, thinking it might be you.
today i rushed to see something from "1111" and an invitation from sprint to sign up for a service that helps me find the best gas prices.
ugh.
such a let down.
i've been having fun with kylah. we went to hobby lobby today and bought some stuff for kelly's shower. we also got some stuff from costco. mom was with us a lot of the day; she brought yummy breakfast to us this morning before we were even up.
what a nice mommy.
this old man riding in one of those motorized grocery carts at costco literally got up out of the cart (i mean, you'd figure he had trouble walking if he was riding in that) to exclaim over ellie. he asked where we got her, as if we'd picked her up in costco. i told him we got her special order. that she's one-of-a-kind.
it was sweet. she really looks so beautiful today. she's wearing such a cute outfit, and she giggled and giggled when mom was playing a silly game with her. she also laughed a bunch at kylah when kylah laughed at her.
tonight we're hanging out with matt and mandy. matt's here already - watching hitch.
i miss you. i know i'm going to grossly overuse that phrase until you get home, but it's the truth.
there's just a hole in my universe that only you can fill.
your wife,
sarah
hi, baby.
i called you last night, and i texted you this afternoon. i know you won't get it until a long time, but the voicemail was a way to hear your voice.
every time i get a text, i rush to the phone, thinking it might be you.
today i rushed to see something from "1111" and an invitation from sprint to sign up for a service that helps me find the best gas prices.
ugh.
such a let down.
i've been having fun with kylah. we went to hobby lobby today and bought some stuff for kelly's shower. we also got some stuff from costco. mom was with us a lot of the day; she brought yummy breakfast to us this morning before we were even up.
what a nice mommy.
this old man riding in one of those motorized grocery carts at costco literally got up out of the cart (i mean, you'd figure he had trouble walking if he was riding in that) to exclaim over ellie. he asked where we got her, as if we'd picked her up in costco. i told him we got her special order. that she's one-of-a-kind.
it was sweet. she really looks so beautiful today. she's wearing such a cute outfit, and she giggled and giggled when mom was playing a silly game with her. she also laughed a bunch at kylah when kylah laughed at her.
tonight we're hanging out with matt and mandy. matt's here already - watching hitch.
i miss you. i know i'm going to grossly overuse that phrase until you get home, but it's the truth.
there's just a hole in my universe that only you can fill.
your wife,
sarah
Thursday, June 14, 2007
dear landon 3.
dear landon,
i really didn't mean for these little notes to be so depressing. it's just turning out that way. a testament, i guess, to the light that you bring to my life. when you're gone, things are not nearly as bright.
today i feel like i have the flu. i had to get a shot at ellie's doctor's appointment yesterday for whooping cough and something else. apparently, adults are the main carriers of the disease, and babies can die from it.
well, from the vaccine, i have what feels like the flu.
it doesn't help that kylah and i stayed up until 1:30 a.m. talking last night (i'd already gotten up at 5 a.m. yesterday, as you know) because then ellie decided to wake up for the day at 4 a.m.
oh, goodness. thank heaven kylah woke up to relieve me at around 6:30 or so, otherwise things would be worse than they are.
i have some good news. i can't really write it here. it's not exactly the kind of thing i want public. but it's something i really need to discuss with you before any further action is taken.
but you're not here.
you're in nicaragua.
and you just left! i'm gonna have to wait forever.
i sure could use some sugar from my baby to help this psuedo-flu pass a little less painfully.
te amo mucho.
your wife,
sarah
i really didn't mean for these little notes to be so depressing. it's just turning out that way. a testament, i guess, to the light that you bring to my life. when you're gone, things are not nearly as bright.
today i feel like i have the flu. i had to get a shot at ellie's doctor's appointment yesterday for whooping cough and something else. apparently, adults are the main carriers of the disease, and babies can die from it.
well, from the vaccine, i have what feels like the flu.
it doesn't help that kylah and i stayed up until 1:30 a.m. talking last night (i'd already gotten up at 5 a.m. yesterday, as you know) because then ellie decided to wake up for the day at 4 a.m.
oh, goodness. thank heaven kylah woke up to relieve me at around 6:30 or so, otherwise things would be worse than they are.
i have some good news. i can't really write it here. it's not exactly the kind of thing i want public. but it's something i really need to discuss with you before any further action is taken.
but you're not here.
you're in nicaragua.
and you just left! i'm gonna have to wait forever.
i sure could use some sugar from my baby to help this psuedo-flu pass a little less painfully.
te amo mucho.
your wife,
sarah
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
dear landon 2.
dear landon,
thank you for calling me from houston. i was so glad to hear your voice.
you're in managua by now. i don't remember if you guys were staying the night there or if you were going out to the village.
all i know is i'm praying with eyes squeezed shut that you're safe.
please, Lord.
i'm really sleepy, but the bed feels weird without you. kylah is here, but, obviously, it's not the same. i'm so glad she came. we've already had lots of fun, and she's only been here a few hours.
please find some way to text or email or call tomorrow.
please? for me.
i miss you like crazy. i love you like insanity.
your wife,
sarah
p.s. i love these photos of you and ellie from before you left. she loves you so much.
thank you for calling me from houston. i was so glad to hear your voice.
you're in managua by now. i don't remember if you guys were staying the night there or if you were going out to the village.
all i know is i'm praying with eyes squeezed shut that you're safe.
please, Lord.
i'm really sleepy, but the bed feels weird without you. kylah is here, but, obviously, it's not the same. i'm so glad she came. we've already had lots of fun, and she's only been here a few hours.
please find some way to text or email or call tomorrow.
please? for me.
i miss you like crazy. i love you like insanity.
your wife,
sarah
p.s. i love these photos of you and ellie from before you left. she loves you so much.
a happy birthday day, only shots hurt fat baby legs.
ellie was in the sweetest mood for her birthday this morning. until...i let two nurses stick her with four different needles. she's been a little cranky since then, needless to say.
she weights 13 pounds, 4 ounces and is 24.5 inches long.
the doctor said rolling from back to front (which she did first) is a six-month skill!
i was beaming.
also, the nurses heard her babbling away (before the needles), and said, "it's obvious people talk to her."
that made me feel good.
and finally, the doctor said if she starts waking up in the night again (she's slept through the night for the past week -- i didn't tell you -- i didn't want to jinx it), that we can start to feed her rice cereal and orange/yellow baby foods like squash, carrots, sweet potatoes, apple sauce, pears, etc.
can you believe my baby might start eating baby food?!
me neither.
here are some photos of her from the last month.
does anyone else think she looks exactly like landon? or is that just me?
kisses from brother.
photos by lolli.
photos by lolli 2.
ellie and landon's pepaw. love this photo.
tummy time.
"i love you, miss butterfly."
all-clean girl.
my insanely skinny babysitter. sheesh.
ellie loves to hold her toes. it occupies her just long enough before she decides to roll over.
more toes.
and the rollover.
"i'm so proud!"
"i look like my daddy."
she weights 13 pounds, 4 ounces and is 24.5 inches long.
the doctor said rolling from back to front (which she did first) is a six-month skill!
i was beaming.
also, the nurses heard her babbling away (before the needles), and said, "it's obvious people talk to her."
that made me feel good.
and finally, the doctor said if she starts waking up in the night again (she's slept through the night for the past week -- i didn't tell you -- i didn't want to jinx it), that we can start to feed her rice cereal and orange/yellow baby foods like squash, carrots, sweet potatoes, apple sauce, pears, etc.
can you believe my baby might start eating baby food?!
me neither.
here are some photos of her from the last month.
does anyone else think she looks exactly like landon? or is that just me?
kisses from brother.
photos by lolli.
photos by lolli 2.
ellie and landon's pepaw. love this photo.
tummy time.
"i love you, miss butterfly."
all-clean girl.
my insanely skinny babysitter. sheesh.
ellie loves to hold her toes. it occupies her just long enough before she decides to roll over.
more toes.
and the rollover.
"i'm so proud!"
"i look like my daddy."
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