at tha crossroads.

this post title makes me think of that old song by bone thugs-n-harmony called, "tha crossroads."

yeah. that's how you spell it. "tha." i looked it up.

well, i'm there.

i can't get too detailed because of the public nature of this blog, but i feel like one phase of my life is coming to an end, but i haven't an inkling as to the next step.

seriously, i want this phase to end. i'm so ready. things are just not well. my spirit is stirring for a change.

but if i end it, i have no idea where to go next.

i can think of several options, but none of them seem to be just blaringly perfect.

i suppose it's because my limited vision is incapable of seeing the perfect option because it's yet to be revealed. and most likely i'm not going to see it until i take a leap of faith, following what i believe to be the right thing in my heart.

God likes to do that, huh? ask us to go places without a specified reason. it's because He ends up providing a great testimony that would be far less impactful if i knew the outcome beforehand.

but herein lies my problem: how do i know if i'm supposed to take the leap, and He's ready to catch me? what if i'm just being an impatient brat who needs to just suck it up and stay put?

that, my friends, is the million dollar question.

so here i remain.

and in the words of krayzie bone, layzie bone, wish bone, bizzy bone and flesh-n-bone:

gotta hold on gotta stay strong/when the day comes/better believe bone got a shoulder you can lean on/hey and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray/everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday/and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray/everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday