if you know me well, it's no secret that if i had my druthers, i'd be staying home with ellie.
the result is often a bad attitude toward the need for me to work.
it manifests itself in all sorts of ways including, but not limited to, less-than-inspired effort, jealousy toward people who get to stay home or will when they have children and a sinking feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach when i contemplate anything related to the issue.
the situation is further complicated by the fact that i love my job. i love to write. and on top of that, a part of me feels i will have failed if i choose to stay home with ellie. like i will have wasted a gift.
well, last night at church God punked me.
pastor jesse was preaching about how "sin's power cannot be whipped by trying."
basically, we need the Holy Spirit in order to get anywhere in life because our efforts alone are not enough.
one thing he said stuck with me: "work today like you're working for the Master in heaven."
God spoke to my heart, saying, "I put you here for a reason. I have a mission for you. in order to accomplish that mission, you will have to be faithful. remember, you're working for Me. take it one step at a time. I would never lead you astray. someday, you will see how this will all work out."
the thought sent me to work this morning inspired anew.
working for people, for money, for advancement or for status allows me to fall short. in fact, it causes me to fall short.
working for Jesus encourages me with the knowledge that, by the Spirit, i will accomplish the mission laid before me in my job - no matter what it is - while at the same time allows me to greet each day with a fresh perspective, wondering, "where will He take me today?"
what a blessing to know that He'll always take me somewhere beyond my wildest dreams.