hi, baby. it's 1:19 in the morning, and i'm really tired.
tired but now i'm really all alone.
kylah left today at 6. it was so great having her here. i wish she hadn't had to leave.
i gave ellie rice cereal for the first time tonight. she sucked it down, but i think it might've messed with her tummy a little because she screamed terror at the top of her lungs for probably close to an hour.
finally, i got her to nurse a little, and she passed out. i'm praying she stays asleep. if the cereal doesn't make her sleep longer, the screaming fest ought to have worn her out for at least a few hours.
we're walking with penny and cade at the nature preserve at 8. my training officially starts this week because i have two walks planned. i have another one thursday evening with jennifer. i'm excited to get it kicked off.
also cool news regarding the 3-day: my coach called (she left a message) to tell me that they want to write a story about me and my family (laura and mom, i'm assuming) for the news and updates publication they put out once a month leading up to the walk. it goes out to just the dallas/fort work walkers, but that's still several thousand people. pretty cool, huh? i'd talked to my coach, leslie, about the story with mom when i was asking her a question, plus, i think she's impressed with my fundraising efforts. so.. i'm excited. her message said the story is due friday so i expect to talk to her tomorrow.
i'm definitely going to church tomorrow night 'cause i'm sure i'll be able to use the break after having ellie all day with no help. also, i just really need refreshing.
i don't know why, but i have this sort of underlying sadness inside right now. it's a weird uneasy feeling that i just can't shake. maybe it's just because you're gone. regardless, i could definitely use some encouragement.
i miss you so much, love. i wish i could've heard your voice tonight. i hope your half-day was restful. i love you very, very much.
keeping your half of the bed warm,