Aiming for progress, not perfection.

"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 1:6

Thursday, March 06, 2008

i should be in bed.

I apparently hit the comment jackpot with my last post. i don't think i'll ever beat 13. just a few words, including references to pooping and motherhood, and mine's the most popular blog in town.

who knew.

i've had a rough couple of days. mentally, i mean.

the actual hours of the day have been flying by this week with the business of two babies. casen is really a wonderful little thing. he would prefer to eat every waking moment and be held just as often. regretfully, that is not always possible. dumb everything-else-but-holding-the-soft-squishy-yummy-smelling baby stuff.

but regarding the mental anguish -- it's like my brain is in this weird alternate universe, contemplating and stressing over things for which i cannot come up with resolutions.

what's most irritating is i can't really put my finger on it. the "things."

it's just a lot of stuff combining to give me...something.

a headache, mostly.

anyway.. i know this makes no sense. it doesn't to me either.

to top it off, the broken record of God's voice saying, "I want you in My house" apparently has a second track called, "you worry about you." something about quitting the job of worrying about everyone else's problems and flaws and concentrating on my own internal issues.



Adam said...

I deal with the same thing alot. Then the other day I was talking with my sports psychologist and she said, "people who worry alot get this false since of security, becuase 95% of the things they worry about never happen, so they think because they worried about it they stopped it from happening!" I just looked at her kind of dumbfounded and said "my worrying does change the world!" She just laughed. Hate it when other people are right! :)

Meems said...

What Adam said is true. I always think since I worried about it, I am just being paranoid and it will never happen. Funny:)