sunday morning church was amazing. landon is the most amazing preacher. i am so proud of him. he is eloquent and interesting and compelling. i literally beam at the thought of being his wife. i do not deserve him, that is for sure.
worship was awesome this morning, but tonight?
if you were not there, people, you missed out. like woah.
it was incredible.
i love it when i get deep into the presence of God in worship, and it's like my voice is no longer my own. i do not sing the way i could will myself to sing. i sing the way i will sing in heaven... no missed notes, pretty harmonies. seriously, if you asked me to sing a harmony impromptu, i couldn't if my life depended on it. but in the presence of my most Holy Father, it flows the way He created it to flow.
there were several words from members of the congregation, and all of them spoke to me in a way i could not begin to explain here. i am struggling with something BIG right now, and i feel desperately disqualified. but it's incredible how the Lord wraps is arms around you and comforts you. during this time when things are difficult in my life -- i am still going to have to suffer the natural consequences of what i'm struggling with -- it is an incredible gift to know the peace of the King. it makes me realize that i will walk out of this valley a stronger person. no matter how bad it hurts along the journey. He is capable of using it for good, and i'm banking on that.
david never even preached tonight. we all just worshipped -- ministering to God and being ministered to by Him and each other.
oh, how i wish there was no work and no cleaning and no laundry so we could just sit around and do that all day every day!
thank you, Lord for pouring Yourself over us lavishly. i, for one, reveled in You tonight. You are a soft, warm place to sit when life is poking me from all sides. i never leave Your presence unchanged.
and thank goodness for that because i can use all the changing i can get.