i don't quite know what to say. i feel like i'm on a vacation. only kylah is missing. she's usually here when i'm in san angelo. also, i have a house on this vacation. that's kinda weird.
i miss my mama. i miss my sister and my brothers and kelly and my dad. i miss penny and kayci and amy and kelly. i miss matthew and mandy.
i even miss grace.
i'm also excited. i like my new house. we're very slowly unloading things, and it's looking really nice. there are some things i wish i could change. but as my stuff is being added, i'm liking it more and more.
now i just need someone to come over.
**oh -- ang, i got your message. i missed it, and then i didn't want to call your house number in case the kids were sleeping. maybe it would've been OK still. i'll call you tomorrow.**
she was calling to ask about the job status. i got my portfolio together yesterday, but i didn't take it today. we started unpacking, and i didn't want to stop.
i'm taking it in the morning though. david and delana approve. i hope mr. lewis does too. please, jesus.
landon is driving to dallas to take care of some things tomorrow and pick up his last paycheck at grace. i plan to be out of the house a lot. i get lonely. please call if there are any get-togethers. i'm still using internet at delana's, and blog access is sparse.
the house is kind of bare too. going from 860 square feet to 1600 or something makes for a lot of space. i like it, but i feel like i need to fill it. pero no dinero. es un problema.
i'm excited for crystal's shower. i need to find the rest of my fondue pot though. that's a scary thought. does anyone know how many/what size dishes i need to bring? i have a lot.
can you see how ridiculous i am right now? i don't feel like i'm doing anything, but i've been exhausted. i don't feel like i'm getting anything done but the days seem to be going quickly. they also seem to be going terribly slow. i feel like i'm sort of in the twighlight zone.
i think it's 'cause i don't have cable. i feel disconnected.
or...it could be because i just moved across the state. and we live in a really big state. and my whole family is back where i came from. i've never lived this far away from them. well, once when my daddy lived in birmingham, but that wasn't for very long.
no no! i know! it's because i don't have the ticket or espn radio. no 24/7 cowboys talk. weird weird weird.
i'm lonely and sad sometimes, but i'm not hopeless. i've said it before -- strange combination of emotions.
i don't really see a natural ending coming for this post. things are pent up and not flowing properly because of my lack of journaling.
bear with me people. hopefully things will improve.