i just watched the tiny love of my life drive away. well, sorta.
i actually hugged my in-laws, kissed her and i had to walk away. i didn't actually watch them drive away. if i had, i think i would've pulled her back out of the car and said, "nevermind. she's not ready."
i think it goes without saying who's not ready.
it's our two-year anniversary on sunday. we're going to have this weekend to be "just us." so many times since ellie was born we've longed for the days of being just us -- sleeping in, movies, last-minute decisions to leave the house without having to be sure the diaper bag is packed.
in this moment, i would pack 400 diaper bags if i could have my baby with me.
on the other hand, i am so excited to spend this weekend with landon. i know he's excited too. he's been hugging and kissing me excitedly for the past 48 hours. i know we need this time. i know before there was ellie, there was me and landon. and after ellie leaves us to be an adult, it will be me and landon. we need to continue to nurture our relationship with weekends like this the whole time our kids are growing up.
but she's five hours away! i've never spent ONE night away from her! this will be THREE with her FIVE HOURS away.
but that insures that landon and i will be totally alone.
on sunday night -- our actual anniversary -- we're going to stay the night in the mansion hotel. i won a night's stay last year when i won the halloween costume contest at work. i was a chef with a bun in the oven. my tummy was painted like a cupcake.
i miss my cupcake. so bad. i haven't stopped crying.
i don't even know what landon and i are gonna do tonight! we could do anything! i bet he'll want to go to the movies. i can't wait to lay on his shoulder and feed him sour patch watermelons.
tomorrow we're probably going to go to the fair in the morning and early afternoon before church. any time i've been to a place like the fair, i've always imagined when i'd have a husband to walk around and hold hands with me. i can't wait to do that tomorrow.
oh, man.. i just looked at the newborn portraits of ellie.
but i'm focusing on the one of our rings on her toes.
ellie needs her mommy and daddy to be in love. she needs us to be husband and wife and then her parents.
this weekend is needed. i can't believe the greatest man on earth has been mine for two whole years.
i can't believe we made a baby together.
let's just pray we don't make another one this weekend!!!!