i have two stories to write, and it's two minutes to one. they won't be hard to write if i could just get started. thought maybe a blog here would get the creative juices flowing.
i should've written them before now, but i've been feeling sick all weekend. something i ate friday night (i think) didn't agree with me, and my tummy has been mad ever since.
unrelated to the tummy, i'm still feeling blah. i'm at a stalemate. i think i've found clarity and peace, but then i get scared. i do think it means something that i feel the peace and clarity when i'm worshiping or praying. but as soon as i stop, my brain starts to work on it's own -- forgetting to remember God's great ability -- and i get scared.
then i wonder, "am i making up this peace and clarity because that's how i want it to be? am i just too lazy to make the other way work? am i making a huge mistake?"
i told you. blah.
the other reason this late night sucks is because i have a dentist appointment at 7:30 a.m. i have to get up in five and a half hours, and i'm not going to bed yet.
i hate the dentist.
there is one thing i'm clinging to in this time of uncertainty and disorientation.
i said it to landon earlier today.
"whenever you've been in a hard place in your life, do you find comfort knowing a testimony is being written?"
that's what i feel like.
right now, this sucks.
but when i'm on the other side looking back, i will have a story to tell.
thankfully, because i know He has plans for me, i know it will have a happy ending.