Aiming for progress, not perfection.

"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 1:6

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

took the shower.

it didn't help.

kylah emailed me, and hit the nail on the head. i didn't even mention it in my previous post, but it's not so much the nourishment for ellie that i'd miss if she stopped breastfeeding, though that is a big deal.

it'd be the connection. the thought that all those precious rolls on her tiny body were not created by me. the knowledge that this is the first step in a future of many that will pave her path away from needing me.

and this afternoon, that hurts.

i'm still sad. worse even, at the concrete statement of the truth.

2 comments:

Grama said...

sweet mommy, don't fret so much about what you do not have but what you do have. cherish the tender moments you have nursing ellie and let it be enough. so what if you give her both. if you nurse her 3 or 4 times a day until she is 1 that is 3 or 4 times a day you get to hold her close and snuggle and take her in. it's probably really that since you don't nurse her as much those feedings in the afternoon your milk is not as plentiful and rich but first thing in the morning it is. you make enough for the times you nurse her. it's okay. i promise.

Scruggs Family said...

sweet sarah. i can't relate. not yet anyway. but if it's any encouragement, i agree with grama. treasure those precious moments God gives you with ellie. i'd give anything to have the chance to nurse for even three months. ellie will be just fine. you're doing an excellent job of being a mommy.