i wasn't going to post what my "long and winding road" is because i'm scared. scared to put it out there for all to see only to have it lead to a dead end. but i also don't want to be the girl who is unnecessarily vague about everything*, and the only reason i was doing it really was because i'm a wimp who is afraid of failure.
so...i've decided to let you in on the super exciting (ha) news.
i'm going to try to become a teacher.
a middle school writing teacher to be exact.
i've been going back and forth about doing it, and i've officially started the process today. applications have been filled out, transcripts and scores requested, release forms signed.
i know you teachers reading are flexing your typing fingers with insight about what teaching is "really like." but i assure you, i've contemplated the time requirements, the stress factor and the down-right difficulty of teaching. there are enough teachers in my life for me to realize that this is not an "oh-my-gaw-the-totally-perfect-job-for-a-mom-'cause-you-get-summers-off!!!" kind of job. i mean, that's nice. but that isn't gonna be what sustains me. i've seen first-hand how hard these men and women work. they have to have summers off in order to maintain any semblence of sanity. but i believe my passion for writing coupled with my life-long calling to kids in this age range gives me at least an OK point from which to launch. i will admit, i am terrified of the classroom management portion.
i plan to stick with kylah's advice: "be really, really mean."
it will be a long process with lots of paperwork and time involved. oh yeah, and lots of work. but it might be the answer. and as i've been saying, i'm desperate for the answer.
i'll keep you posted.
in the meantime, won't you pray for me? oh, and send along any teaching positions that you may hear of. i'm gonna need the best odds possible.
*note: i know there are lots of instances in blog world where vagueness is absolutely necessary. i'm not meaning any passive-aggressive shots at anyone who tends to post vaguely or has posted vaguely in the recent past, let's be clear.