bad belly night.

after watching casen, attending an impromptu play date and THEN going to wal-mart, my uterus is angry with me. so is my sciatic nerve. i had some light straightening and organizing to do after ellie went to bed at 8:30, but i've yet to do it 'cause contractions are bad enough just sitting at this computer and it hurts all the way down my leg even when i don't try to walk, let alone bend.

blah blah blah blah blah. that's how i feel. blah freakin blah.

it's especially irritating 'cause i don't have landon -- i miss him so bad -- to talk to or even cable to distract me if sitting is all i can do for the rest of the night. i couldn't sleep until 1:30 or so last night because it's weird getting into bed alone so i was on the computer for hours. i don't think i can do it again tonight. no one is updating blogs anyway and, for tonight at least, the thrill of searching for baby things i can't afford has worn off.

so i'm contemplating going to bed. it's only 9:39 as i type this sentence, but... i can't come up with any other solution. landon is busy with the kids and reception is spotty at the campground so i can't even talk to him on the phone.

maybe i'll take a bath first. wonder if there are any books in this house i haven't read yet.

blah blah blah blah blah blah.

thank you for attending my pity party. the online session is officially over, though the party continues in earnest at my house where there are a million things i ought to be getting done.

blah blah blah blah blah.