i know everyone has experiences like this so you know where i'm coming from.
it's just i felt like we were making progress. i felt like things were getting better, and - though far from "on top of it" - we were at least moving in a positive direction. most of the loose ends were tied up, and progress was beginning.
today, i was rudely informed of the false nature of that feeling. it was a lying feeling.
in fact, we are still flailing around in the deep, dark pool at the bottom. splashing to and fro, hoping for some olympic-style, progress-making strokes to suddenly become something of which we are capable.
crap. crap. crap.
and then when i prayed, a rather pissed off prayer, i might add, God said, "I want you in My house" along with something about baby steps and "remember those things you have already accomplished in Me. faithfulness is not a short term project."
does He not understand the concept of HURRY?!?!!? i get it! hello! can we just freakin' hurry now?!!? the things You're telling me to do are not conducive to hurrying. burn a bush, part a sea, make animals talk and turn water to wine. immediate healing is what we need!
all i want is to hurry... i just want to be on the right track.
Aiming for progress, not perfection.
"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."