Aiming for progress, not perfection.

"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 1:6

Monday, November 26, 2007

white walls and plastic towel bars.

i brought her home in a tiny bundle. she had on so many layers. holding her without knowing, she seemed three times as big as she was. it was so cold. much colder than today. i can remember unwrapping her, layer-by-layer. there she was. three days old. in her new purple room. it was there i nursed her. and there i stopped nursing her. it was there i got up three times a night. and there i checked on her when she started sleeping through the night. she rolled over there, sat up there, smiled there, laughed there, crawled there and stood there. she will never be there again.

tomorrow morning we'll turn in our keys to our apartment in plano. we cleaned the heck out of it this afternoon, and it sparkles. ellie's purple room is no more. i walked through each room slowly before i locked it for the last time. it's just a little apartment. nothing special. white walls and plastic towel bars.

it's so weird how places hold such meaning. the places themselves are nothing. just empty rooms. but they're so important to us - the backdrop of every picture catalogued in our minds.

it was sad, but i'm ready to go home. yes, home. san angelo is home now. it hasn't felt like it so much this month. i've felt like we've been on vacation. but when we go back this time, landon starts work and it will feel more like normal.

at least i'm banking on that.

we have beige walls in san angelo. and the towel bars are porcelain, i do believe.

fancy upgrade, huh...

tonight i'm praying that the Lord has other upgrades planned for us in our new home. i pray that He tears down my white walls and allows His grace, love and mercy to flow freely through me. i pray He snaps my plastic towel bars and urges me to reach out to others and show them the amazing things of which He is capable.

build me a new backdrop, Lord.

i am ready.


marme said...

I love you so. You have opened places in my heart I was unaware existed.

Thank you God for this gift...

my girl sarah.

fyi...the word verification for this comment was xroad...


kj said...

yes, Lord, break down our white walls and plastic towel bars. you are wonderful.

so are you, sister. i love you and i pray with all of my heart that you will be happy in your new home.

ree said...

Lord, make this feel like home for Sarah, Landon, and Ellie. Let their home be a safe haven that welcomes them after whatever kind of day they've had. Bring new friends, new joys, and new memories to add to their existing ones to make the white walls a colorful pallet and to make the plastic towel bars sturdy and strong that will be stronghold when they need a hand up. Thank you for them. Bless them as only you can.

no_iffer said...

I am so happy you are here. I know leaving any home is hard, but I hope very soon your new home and this new hillbilly town of San Angelo will feel more like home than ever before.

Meems said...

I'm looking forward to getting to know you. I love this post. Nice.

JAC said...

Welcome to San Angelo and to SAFA. We already love the three of you.