i've gone to work during rush hour for the past two days.
i try not to do that. usually i go obscenely early (like 5:30 or 6) or after 9 o'clock sometime.
but the past two days have presented a schedule that has required me to drive south toward the city in traffic.
a drive that takes 20 minutes tops when the road is clear takes 45 minutes to an hour if i try to make it between 7 a.m. and 9 a.m.
lucky for me, i have the overshadowed cds. delana brought them to me when she was here last week, and it's been like my own little retreat the past two mornings.
yesterday i sobbed and sobbed singing "alabaster box" and "fragrant offering." i also love "my redeemer lives." for some reason that song always excites me. i'm sure it's just feeling His presence and knowing that He's alive and working inside me. this morning, the second i turned the key, i felt Him near me. this morning, i was empowered.
i've recently discovered -- while driving in my car -- that God gives me words for people while i dwell in His presence. it's incredibly humbling to be used to speak something to someone for the Lord. it's never anything complicated or monumental. but the Lord knows the very moment that His children are wondering or worrying. and lately He's been teaching me to be sensitive to Him, and that He'll use me in His perfect timing to encourage and uplift. it's awesome.
there is a lot of change happening in my life and the lives of those close to me. i am excited and nervous at the same time. the Lord has been preparing hearts for several months, and during this time i have realized something. i have realized that in these moments of transition, i have to be desperately seeking Him or else i begin to doubt and worry.
i am the kind of person who can get into some serious trouble if i begin to doubt and worry -- seeking satisfaction and security in places other than Jesus. bad places.
i pray that the Lord continues to work in my life so that i would realize that desperately seeking Him is the only way to go. no matter what the circumstance, i want to realize how badly i need Him as i have in these recent days.
i think it's that i'm alone and quiet in my car. when i'm alone and quiet, my Lord shows up big time.
there, in my squeaking, rattling, rumbling explorer, He knocks.
and i let Him in.