what a long day.

i just got back from a "look good, feel better" class with my mom and laura. it was good. the american cancer society offers it to women who are going through chemo. there were tips for how to tie scarves, how to fake eybrows and eyelashes and that using anti-aging products during chemo is not a good idea. mom made off with $300-worth of products from lines like chanel, avon, clinique and mary kay. i'm jealous.

another highlight in an otherwise stressful day was a text conversation with kylah. i won't try to explain it 'cause i can't say it any better than she did here.

i'll just tell you it was awesome.

i haven't written about it lately, but that decision i've been struggling is still hanging around. it was the subject of the conversation between jo and me.

it's amazing how God works because after i was finished talking with her, there was an awesome song in my CD player by isa. and it didn't stop there. "i will lift my eyes" by bebo norman came on the radio shortly thereafter.

man, this is a good song for this time in my life.

i can't even tell you how good.

God, my God, i cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
and take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

i will lift my eyes to the Maker
of the mountains i can’t climb
i will lift my eyes to the Calmer
of the oceans raging wild
i will lift my eyes to the Healer
of the hurt i hold inside
i will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all i bring
is all of me

‘cause You are and You were and You will be forever
the Lover i need to save me
‘cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
so hold me now