my heart is troubled. it pounds against my chest as i contemplate what i've done. i had to say some difficult things in an email to someone i love today. you know my insides, God. you know that it pleases me to please people. you know how difficult it is for me to say things that may be unwelcome. all i want is for people to accept me.
but my prayer is this: please use my words toward your purpose. i know you work in all situations, and i claim that promise right now. i know it may not be easy for me. i pray that this situation helps me grow closer to you. i prayed that my words would please you. as difficult as it is for me, especially in this situation, i want to please you above all.
i love you, Lord.