three weeks from now.

exactly three weeks from tonight it will be another monday.

hopefully i will already be in bed at 10:40 like i am tonight. hopefully it will be raining like it is tonight. hopefully my tummy won't hurt like it does right now because i will not have eaten hot cheetos.

but even if none of those things happen, it will be a monumental night. a night like none other i have ever experienced or ever will again.

next monday night, i will fall asleep in this bed, next to this handsome man, and i will know whether my first child will be a boy or a girl. next monday at 2:45 we have a doctor's appointment for our 20-week sonogram. i'll be able to see my baby on that screen.

i know i'll cry either way. i'll be overjoyed either way.

next monday i'll know whether to dream in pink or in blue.